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Nán Wǎnyān was so tossed around that her eyes were sparkling with gold stars. Right here, in her mind, many strange memories suddenly appeared—,I thought it might be ugly, but I didn't expect it to be this ugly.,"Since we're planning to run away, we need to hurry. As the book says, plans can't keep up with changes... Anyway, just come down quickly. When mother gets back with the carriage, we can go out and have fun."。